Archive for June, 2006

Where I’ve been…

Thursday, June 29th, 2006

I didn’t post here about beforehand but, figured I’d fill y’all in, now. I had to have a hysteroscopy and D&C biopsy yesterday.

Everything looks structural normal, only one polyp was found, they peforated my uterus in one spot, but that’ll heal. I’ll have the biopsy results back in a couple of weeks. That was the biggest reason for the surgery, as they are testing me for uterine and cervical cancer.

I’m still scared about the results but, I made it through the surgery and the anesthesia which was a huge fear of mine. The doctors, nurses, etc were wonderful, explaining everything to me as they went along, all the way up to when they put me out.

When I came out of the anesthesia, I was in a lot of pain, so they shot me full of Toradol. And, it didn’t stop, so on came the morphine. I could have told them Toradol doesn’t work for me but, I was still so out of it, that wasn’t an option.

I’m home, now, on percocet and ibuprofen, in a lot of pain but, dealing. The worst part is my jawline from positioning me for the airway tube. My whole chin/jaw feels like I was hit with a sledgehammer.

And, I’m still really tired. But, now onto the next step, making it until I have the biopsy results back. 2 more weeks of not knowing. Plus, six weeks of restrictions, no heavy lifting, no baths, no swimming, no sex. Hmph, sounds like postbirth restrictions, only without the kid.

I’m gone.


Friday, June 23rd, 2006

If disappears, it will return next month. I can’t afford to pay my hosting this month. Sorry guys :(

I can be reached at, though.

Part 1: The Birth of You

– Were you a planned baby?
Yep. In fact, my Mom got pregnant with me so she could marry my Dad, as she was under age and they wouldn’t sign for her to marry.

– Were you the first?

– Were your parents married when you were born?
Yes, for 6 months.

– What is your birthdate?
April 21, 1975

Part 2: The Family

– How would you describe your family?
Wackjobs. Polish on one side, Cherokee and something else on the other. Completely insane but, I love them are.

– Are your parents married?
Yep, 31 years in October.

– Siblings or an only child?
2 sisters, 1 brother.

– If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest?

– What are your siblings names?
Mary, Katie, Richie

– Which parent do you get along with best?
Both of them.

– What do you fight about?
Not much, I’m away from them, so when we’re together, no need to argue.

– Do you have step parents?

Part 3: The Friends

– Do you have more than one best friend?
Yeah. A group of people I have been friends with forever. Stacy, Jo, Tracey, Danny.

– Who is your best friend or friends?

-What do you like to do when you are together?
Talk, drink, watch the kids.

– Do you share the same interests?
Not really but, we all still get along.

– Which friend can you tell anything to?

Part 4: Your Personality

– How high/low is your self esteem?
Middle of the road.

– Do you get depressed about things easily?
Serious things, yes. Others, no.

– Are you an extrovert or an introvert?

– Happy?
Most of the time.

– Do you live life to the fullest?
Not really. Too much weighing down, right now.

Part 5: Appearance

– Are you comfortable with the way you look?

– What would you change about your appearance if you could?

– Do you have any piercings besides your ears?
I don’t wear any jewelry right now. I got tired of the feeling of it.

– Describe your hair?
Wild, long, reddish brown.

– How do you dress?

Part 6: The Past

– Were you a strange child?
Yep, still am.

– What did you use to love that you no longer do?

– Do you have the same friends?
Quite a few of them.

-Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing?
Not mentioning it in this space.

Part 7: The Future

– What is your ambition?
I will be a teacher if I’m 60 when I finish.

– Are you scared of growing old?
It’s better than the alternative.

Part 8: The Outdoors

– Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?
When it’s not hot, outdoors.

– What is your favorite season?

– Favorite weather?

– Do you like walking in the rain?
Nope. I hate wet feet.

Part 9: Food

– Are you a vegetarian?

– What is your favorite food?
Steak, medium rare.

– What food makes you want to gag?
Raw tomatoes.

– What is your favorite dessert?

– What is your favorite restaurant?
Renato’s Italian.

– Are you a picky eater?

A day…

Monday, June 19th, 2006

I’m slowly cutting my hair shorter. An inch here or there to get used to it. It was about waist length and is now closer to bra strap length.

It’s lighter now. Weird. When I get to shoulder length, I’ll leave it there and dye it pink again. Yes, pink, again. I look too, unSuzy like. My nose ring is gone, as it migrated down my face, I don’t wear my earrings, I stopped stretching them, and my hair is normal.

I’ve been going through an “I must look like an adult” phase. But, really what does that mean? I’m 31. Obviously, I’m not a kid anymore. I look my age. The picture down there? It’s a couple years old now. I have some grey peaking out, a line here or there. I really do look like a 31 year old.

Although, that phrasing is odd. I am 31, so, I have to look 31. Just like anyone else, if you’re 40, that’s what 40 looks like for you, 20, same thing. (Lord, though, if I could go back to 20 and tell myself how young I was.)

We are used to judging age by media. Television, magazines, news. Of course actors look younger, they have money to be pinched, pulled, tucked, makeup’d to look like something their not.

It’s the real people that matter. That hits me sometimes, when I’m sitting at a dart tournament, a store, a restaurant. How people look. No one looks like the magazine pictures, we all have different lines, expressions, hair. No one’s hair is completely flat without a single hair poking out. We’re people.

Yet, we look to those pictures to compare ourselves. That’s just sad. There is nothing better looking than a regular person with a smile. A man holding his wife’s hand. A mother looking at her child. A couple giggling across a table. That’s reality and I wish there was more of it.

2 Things…

Friday, June 9th, 2006

No idea where I stole this from:

2 Things

Two names you go by:
1. Suzy
2. Aunt Pooh

Two parts of your heritage:
1. Polish
2. Cherokee

Two things you are wearing right now:
1. Red shirt
2. Black Capri Pants

Two things you want in a relationship:
1. Laughter
2. Honesty

Two of your favorite hobbies:
1. Reading
2. Target Shooting

Two things you want really badly at the moment:
1. A car
2. A laptop

Two pets you had/have:
1. My Homer whom we had to put to sleep a year ago.
2. Woody, an all white fluffball dog, who was put to sleep right before we got Homer.

Two things you did last night:
1. Made Fried Rice.
2. Wrote something, then trashed it, as I hated it.

Two favorite places to eat:
1. Renato’s
2. A Mexican place that I have no idea the name of.

Two things you ate today:
1. A piece of pizza
2. Nothing else, yet.

Two people you last talked to:
1. Timmy
2. My sister, Katie

Two things you’re doing tomorrow:
1. Going to a parade
2. Going to a party

Two longest car rides:
1. Driving to Walt Disney World.
2. Driving to Niagara Falls.

Two favorite holidays:
1. Halloween
2. Fourth of July