I just ate entirely too much pizza. To the point that my stomach hurts. Now, I know better, and I have been working on my eating issues for the past year to the point that I have lost 50 pounds in a year. Yet, tonight I couldn’t stop myself, I had to eat that last piece and make myself miserable.
While, it is less pizza than I would’ve eaten a year ago to get to this point, I’m still mad at myself that my food issues are just lurking beneath the surface waiting to pounce on me again. I still have a very long way to go to have all of my extra weight gone and I have let some of my old habits creep back in.
I know what my eating triggers are, I know how serious my food issues can be yet, I just do not have the willpower I need to turn into a completely healthy eater. Even with all of this, getting down on myself isn’t the answer, in the past 14 months, I have quit smoking, lost 50 pounds, and worked on some other things in my life to get myself how I want to be, a slip up now and then isn’t fatal. Just fattening, and I’ll stay away from pizza until Christmas Eve.