November has become the month of gratitude on Facebook. I, as am I wont to do, was running behind and just began posting what I am thankful for a couple of days ago.
So often in life the minuatiue of every day gets us down and makes us forget what we should be thinking about all the time. Heck, this morning, when I awoke way too early for a Saturday, threw off the blankets to a cold room, and a hurting leg, made gratitude the last thing on my mind.
I drug myself out of bed, got dressed in layers, drug my bad leg to the minivan, and got in. The car started, the sun was shining, I made it through McDonald’s drive-through (for hot chocolate) in no time.
My destination was Charlie and Tre’s football games. I was there, early, and the wonderful guys let me in the front, as I cannot make that walk from the far lot.
Yes, it was cold and windy. However, it was sunny and bright, my Tre and Charlie attacked me with hugs, I got to talk to my little brother and my Daddy. What more could you ask for?
This morning started with whining, but within a short time I was happy and enjoying the games. (and they won, Charlie won 30-0 and Tre won 52-0. I got hugs and off they went.
There is so much to be grateful in this one morning, yet, many days I cannot bring myself to be. I know that a large part of it is my situation. I am fighting depression as I have most of my life. There are days when I cannot bring myself to do anything.
Then there is dealing with the cancer side effects, particularly the lymphedema and the wounds from that. It is hard. On top of that I have fibromylagia, compression neuropathy, and all sorts of pain causing stuff.
I have to think about how good my life really is to get myself out of whine mode. Today, I have done a good job with it. Right now, I am waiting for the time when my friends will get here for us to have a fire and roast hot dogs and marshmallows.
This is just one day. There is so much to be grateful for, I just need to focus on that and not so much on the bad things.
My goal now is to start posting what I am grateful for when I am having a particularly bad day. Also, Holidailies is coming, which means many more posts from me.