Archive for December, 2017


Friday, December 29th, 2017
I have resolutions for 2018. I never do these, but here we go.
Be more positive. Look at things from the side of happiness. For too many years I have let depression steal my joy.
Ignore the haters. I work in a job where some people are pretty damn awful to me. It seems they forget that the person they are downing is their neighbor. Or a person that supported them a lot in the past.
You know what? I can ignore them.
Do things I’m afraid of. Go up high, try something I’m likely to fail it. Learn things that I have always wanted to try.
Failure is okay.
Write more personally. I did a lot of writing that was published nowhere this year. Things that were just for me. pages and pages of writing that worked through so many things.
I want to do more of that in 2018.
Take more pictures. 2018, daily pictures. They may not get uploaded every day, but they will exist.
More portrait work. I like doing them a lot. I plan on focusing on portrait work in 2018.
I also want to be faster at my editing turnaround. Unfortunately, I need more time in the day to do that or to figure out a better workflow.
Lose more weight. I’m down over 80 pounds now. Other than the past two days (stress, dammit) I have been eating on plan. Tonight? I’m in a shit ton of pain.
Which means the eating plan is working. Vegetables, fruits, superfoods, lean protein and I feel so much better. When I veer from this, I hurt.
Back to plan tomorrow and on into 2018.
Any plans for your new year?

Learning to live normally

Saturday, December 23rd, 2017
Weight loss content. If not interested, move on, please.
I just baked six varieties of cookies including my absolute favorites chocolate chip.
I ate a clementine instead of cookies.
I haven’t weighed myself recently, but I feel fantastic. Seriously, I feel better than I have in 10 or more years.
My pants are fitting better and pants that were too tight now slide over my ass and onto my waist.
I am exercising on a daily basis and adding minutes each week.
And again, I feel better than I have in years.
I am learning how to do this. Like last Sunday I went to the closing of JarrettThor Art Gallery. They had all sorts of yummy food. I ate light the day before and after so I could have some of it.

For the average person that is common sense. I know that. People with food issues have to learn to eat like this.

People who grew up poor and have food issues really have to learn this. Growing up money was very tight. If something really good came into the house, you ate it as fast as you could so you got your share.

I never got over that. Even as an adult who is doing better than my parents did I still have issues with eating free food until full, or overfill, and to never ever wasting food.

Prior to the past few months, if there were leftovers in the fridge that were getting close to going bad, I would eat them. It didn’t matter if I were actually hungry, it couldn’t go to waste.

Now, I’m learning to cook in smaller quantities (Still working on that one) and if I am not hungry and it is not on the plan for the day, it doesn’t get eaten.

Again, this is revelatory to someone like me.

This week I am eating lighter even than the past few months so I can eat dinner at my parents on Christmas Eve and then dinner on Christmas day without guilt.

Thanksgiving was a test. I cooked all the carb-filled heavy food plus several kinds of vegetables. I made my sweet potatoes with just baked sweet potato. No sugar, no nuts, nothing like that.

I ate small portions of some of the food, but I kept it small. Again, this is all new to me.

I have binge eating issues. I have for years.

Since I began eating better this time I have only binged once.

I’m starting to think I can really do this. Instead of a diet so much, I am really doing a lifestyle change. I have changed what I buy, what I cook, what i even think about putting in my body.

There have been no potato chips in my mouth for months and months. And, I love potato chips. Seriously, they are a food group to me.

Slowly, but surely, it is working.

Now, I just have to ignore the cookies until they are eaten. I may very well just have Tony put them up out of my reach. I mean even as good as I am doing I only have so much willpower.


Monday, December 11th, 2017

Colonial Beach Elementary School held its annual winter concert last week.

Second, fourth, fifth grade and the concert band and chorus performed. Just a couple shots of the adorable kiddos.


Monday, December 11th, 2017


Saturday, December 9th, 2017

Christmas festivities in Colonial Beach, VA.