Tonight, while reading some of my fellow cancer survivor blogs, a realization hit me. Over the past 4.5 years my focus has been on getting to the end of my cancer story. However, it bludgeoned me tonight that as long as there is breath in my body, my cancer story will continue.

I know, I know, you all got that. However, my brain has been focused on getting past the cancer, the side effects, the issues, the scans. Those aren’t going away though. Unless they magically develop a way to cure lymphedema, a single kidney, the lung lesions and everything else.

This is not easy to take. Am I forever going to be Suzy, the kidney cancer patient? Now, I consider myself the survivor, but my doctors still consider me the patient. That is why I think I have been putting off my most recent scan, but it is past time. I have to buck up, call my doctor and get my scans done.

It is time for me to move on to the next part of my cancer story. The one where I deal with all the bad things, take care of myself and work on the rest.

Have a great Friday.
Suzy Smith