Is it sad that I get excited about his birthday?  I love buying him presents and making him a special dinner.  I enjoy spending a whole day just focused on Tony.  He deserves to have every day focused entirely on him, but unfortunately real life gets in the way.

Speaking of his birthday, back in November, on Black Friday, actually, I ordered him two things from CompUSA.  They were supposed to be Christmas gifts, but they didn't get here in time.  Okay, I figured, I'd shift some Christmas and birthday stuff around, they had to be in by his birthday, right?  One is, the other is not, and they don't know when it will be here.

And it's not like this is some obsolete piece of hardware or something, damnit.  I want it here, for him, as it is something he very much wants.  Friggin' company.

Another item I order for him, wasn't supposed to be in until the end of December.  No problem, again I figured I would be a birthday gift.  That company not only had it here before Christmas, but overnighted it, so it would be here.

They emailed me and the owner of the company, personally, told me it would be here by his birthday.  (I can't use the name of the company as he'll know what it is from that.)

I still have one or two more things I would like to get him, prior to his birthday, but I have to actually go in person for them.  And I have to decide on a cake type for him (chocolate on chocolate, probably as he's a chocoholic.)  I wish I could give him everything his heart desires, as I am truly blessed to have such a wonderful husband.  I don't know what I would do without him.

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Earlier tonight, I was in a snit, actually I was stressing as I was watching Tre and Kyrsie.  At one point I had him in one arm, her in the other and they were both crying.  Of course, I started crying as I didn't know how to calm them both at once.  After I finally calmed them, I got Tre to sleep and Kyrsie was almost there.

Then the phone rang, Mom needed me to do something.  Of course, both of the kids woke up and started crying again.  A little while later, I called out to Tony and he didn't move fast enough for my impatient ass and I snapped at him.

I feel like shit, now, even after I have apologized several times.  Tony deserves better than a wife who snaps so easily.  Especially with tonight being our last night before his school grind starts again.  This semester he'll be in class from 9AM until 9:30 PM two days a week, plus 1.5 travel time each one, and another class a third day.  It's really going to be a rough semester for him.

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Baby, I'm sorry I was an ass tonight.  I love you.  I hope your first day of the semester goes well.  I'm extremely proud of how well you are doing in school.  Now go kick some engineering ass.

Always, Sue.
Suzy Smith